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Yes. I work at an Insurance Agency. Can't stand the work but I'm looking into saving and moving. Maybe back home or somewhere else to start new. Too many bad memories here and maybe once that happens I can go back to being me. I can't remember who that person is but maybe she'll reinvent herself when she keeps seeing the past walking around her. Ya know? I don't make that much though which is why living with Cindy is a blessing...not that many bills but this gas bill is killing us. Hurting the kids. Cold showers are not fun at all.

reply to sweetiegirl  Your doin good girl, sometimes settin a fire under someones butt gets them goin and it seems to me that your in the right direction--now--how about employment? are you able to work or are you working now. Can you use any skills you may have learned in the army?Whatever you do I'm very glad you have your child front and center at all times. I wish you the  best.  sheshe030

Of course I thought about my daughter. While we were dating she was spending her mandatory month and a half with her father. I slowly introduced her to the ex and they seems to hit it off great. She loved his children and all the fun at the house. The pool, inside arcade, trampoline, it was a settled environment. It was good for her. A family place. She deserved the best and had it for a short while. I hated taking her out of there but it was months of living with him before I discovered the man I thought I knew. We all make mistakes. If it was just me and not her then I wouldn't be so worried about everything. I can make it just me. I wouldn't worry about bills and vehicles. I'd live for the day. I didn't settle down until I had children. It's unspoken that all the problems I am trying to deal with are for them not me. They are part of me. It's the effects on them that I am worried. They have never been introduced to any of the men that I have dated other than him. I'm in a fix. First one in a long time. I have talked to the public aide and we get medicade and link that the amount barely helps us. I have asked about bills and housing but I would rather live in a good neighborhood with family than in the ghetto, voilence-ridden place that the income based living is here in the area. It's never easy to start over. I've called bill assistance...they have no funds right now. I've called churchs and best I could get was a hundred dollars. Now...do you have any good advise instead of jumping down my throat about inconclusice conclusions???

reply to sweetie girl----Thank god your ex took the boys, at least we know they have a stable life they can count on. Were you even thinking about your girls when you moved in with this new love of yours. I don't know about anyone else but I'm more concerned about your children and their welfare, How can you drag your kids through this kind of crap. In reading your blog all I heard was I, I, I--it was all about you, You didn't sound a bit remorseful about what your kids are going through. You need to get your life together, there are tons of resources for single moms, especially if you have been in the service. I would just ask you to really think about what is your most important priority, if it is your children then get on the computer and google and start typing in your needs and find your local resources, and please think about your kids before you fall in love again or even think about moving in with anyone else.     goodluck----sheshe030